Remembrance by Lauren M.

When I think about you I can’t breathe
I swear that for a moment,
just a moment,
the world freezes.
There’s nothing but me
In my red lipstick and long dress.
Then there’s you.
A Prince charming to my fairytale.
In my head, I can feel the touch of our hands
as they glide over each other’s skin.
I feel your lips on mine.
They’re on my cheek, my neck, my shoulders.
I still remember what it was like to touch your hair.
It blanketed my fingers like it was trying to keep them warm.
The memories are vague, so long ago.
It’s like trying to create a character for a book.
You’re real, but you aren’t.
I’m trying to know someone who I’ve never met.
It frightens me to try,
but scares me to forget.

Lauren M.

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The Heart Of Poetry

Poetry is a form of writing that most people don’t pay attention to. Even those who read the biggest books won’t pick up a small poem. It seems meaningless to them compared to the adventures of their novels. I’ve been that way for most of my life. Always reading and appreciating literature, but never reveling in the beauty of poetry.

“And when wind and winter harden / All the loveless land, / It will whisper of the garden, / You will understand.” – To My Wife, Oscar Wilde

I think the reason is school. Every year the English class curriculums require poetry. There are guides, big words, and a formula for creating the perfect poem. However, I’ve come to find out that poetry isn’t perfect and there isn’t this perfect formula for it. While personification, metaphors, and similes are great you don’t need them for a poem to be good.

Personally, I prefer personification. In my opinion, it’s always been easier to make an inanimate object come to life. “The smiling sun,” and, “Caressing towel,” are just two examples. Before yesterday, I hadn’t written poetry in a long time. In fact, the last time I remember writing a poem was with my sister one night. I don’t remember what I wrote about, but I used one of her prompts from her class.

“Words, words were truly alive on the tongue, in the head warm, beating, frantic, winged; music and blood but then I was young.” – “Little Red Cap” by Carol Ann Duffy

All I remember was that it needed to make me mad and uncomfortable. It was then I learned that poetry is uncomfortable. It’s not like writing a novel where you can be someone different from yourself. In poetry, you are yourself. You can’t hide behind a mask or pretend that it isn’t how you really feel. It is pure, raw emotion and intimacy. It’s passion and everything about your life that you love and hate.

Before that night, I hadn’t written since I was with one of my ex-boyfriends. I’d thought that I’d lost my ability to write poetry because he’d left me so empty. I also thought that I wasn’t good at it. (I’m definitely no Emily Dickenson). However, you don’t need to be an Emily Dickenson to move someone with your words.

Robert Frost once said, “Poetry begins with a lump in the throat.” It’s what you feel and it’s your chance to release those thoughts on paper. It’s a great outlet, especially if you can’t find the words verbally.

City of Bones by Cassandra Clare

One thing I always liked about City of Bones is how it emphasized knowledge and how it changes you. In the end of the movie, Clary tells Jace that everything’s change. She can’t see the world as the same anymore. When Jace replied, my heart stopped. It was the most amazing answer ever. He said, “The world hasn’t changed, you have.” That is so true.

A lot of the time we learn things about ourselves and others that change the way we see something. When you find out your significant other cheated on you, your heart breaks. You lose trust and sometimes can’t even look at them. In that moment they didn’t change. You did. When we see someone help an old lady cross a street, or someone buy a homeless man food, the same thing can be said. We view it as, “There are still good people in the world.” However, images of kidnappings, murders, thieves, and hate hit us.

We can go from feeling hopeful for the human race to feeling like we shouldn’t exist. Again, the world didn’t change, you did. Those things will always be there. Lies, cheating, murder, hate, love, joy, peace, and war are a part of this world. People change, but the world never does. Our whole world revolves around us and the way we view things. Racism, sexism, stereotyping, etc. It won’t ever go anywhere, but we do. We grow, learn, teach, accept, and won’t tolerate. It’s a part of who we are.

Clary is a fifteen (almost sixteen) year old girl that lives her life normally. She goes to school, comes home, hangs out with her best friend, and loves her mother. There isn’t anything really exciting about her life. Except for the nights that she’s able to visit a club called Pandemonium. Clary loves this place for the clothes, people, and atmosphere. Of course, her best friend, Simon, can’t stand it. He’s more of a nerdy, awkward guy that only tags along because it’s what Clary wants to do.

Then she witnesses a murder there. The worse part is that no one else sees it. Not because no one else is there, but because no one else saw the three teenagers lead a guy into a backroom. They’re completely invisible! But why can Clary see them? Because she’s hiding a secret. The only bad part about it is that she doesn’t even know what the secret is. Now realizing that the stories she was told as a kid about monsters and heroes were real, consumes her. And the dark shadowhunter that caused a bloody battle is leading straight to her. Who is she really and why can’t she remember?

I was in high school when I read this series for the first time. I couldn’t stop flipping pages. The most frustrating part was that I could only read so fast. I fell in love with each character for a different reason and felt real empathy for everything they went through. That had never happened to me before. This series has definitely earned its title as my favorite book series.

I also like the Christian background that it has involving angels and demons. In this world, they are physical beings that have to be fought in a war. In real life, they aren’t physical beings. We have to fight our demons spiritually. I liked how Cassandra brought that aspect of our lives into a physical form.

My favorite characters are Alec and Magnus. It’s not because they fall in love and I think it’s cute. I like them because of how witty they are. Magnus is supposed to be this crazy powerful warlock (which he is) and he is a giant teddy bear. He’s sweet and kind. Being willing to help a shadowhunter isn’t something most “Downworlders” (werewolves, vampires, warlocks) are capable of. Alec is a sweet guy as well. He is kind (except when he realizes there’s something between Clary and Jace) and considerate. At first, he’s made out to be a total douche. I’m not saying that he wasn’t one, but he had his reasons. I don’t take him as being someone that likes change.

Alec has a secret of his own. It’s life changing and scary. HIs world doesn’t accept this kind of secret. I feel like we all have secrets and life changing things about us that we’re afraid to let out into the world. Plus, once it’s out you can’t ever go back.

Would I recommend this book series? If it wasn’t obvious already, yes. I totally would.

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Medium Clue Scroll Addiction

Clue scrolls have been my new hobby on Runescape. Since I have my quest cape now I’ve been really board. Usually, when I didn’t know what to do, I’d look at my quest list and then figure it out. I’d want to complete a quest but to do that one, I needed to finish something else. However, I couldn’t do that one until I got these requirements. This gave me goals to carry out, and now I’m stuck.

So then I decided to complete the achievement guides, but the requirements are ridiculous and now I just don’t have the time. I decided to do Medium clue scrolls and I am loving them. It’s like completing quests all over again and I get some interesting rewards from them. I want to carry out four hundred because you get a scroll that you can wear and it looks like your character is following a map.

TAn accomplishment I want to make is acquiring the clue scroll outfit and pet. I haven’t been blessed with a ranger boot drop or anything of any worth, but I have gotten teleport tabs and pieces of armor that I didn’t have before which is really cool.

I’m going to continue these mini quests and hopefully, it’ll pay off pretty quick. For those who play the game, if you don’t already do clue scrolls, you should.

Fishing In Piscatoris

Jagex has added skill pets to Runescape and I figured it’s about time I have something cool that wasn’t the kitten from Gertrude’s Cat or the Hellcat from Recipe For Disaster (which is just a kitten/full-grown cat that turns into a hell cat after catching evil mice long enough). I also needed a higher fishing level for completing the achievement diaries and figured that the Heron (fishing pet) would be a great pet to go for.

Unfortunately, it’s taking forever! Okay, I haven’t been playing a lot. With so much on my plate, it’s usually difficult to find time to play. However, I’ve decided to finally crack down and get to work on it (especially since it doesn’t need a lot of my attention). I started at level 63 and now I am 8.6k monkfish in and level 76. Wish me luck!

Things You’ll Find When You Aren’t Looking

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One of my favorite things to do is go shopping. Whether it’s online, at the mall, or at Wal-Mart, I love it all. However, I especially love thrifting. For those who don’t know that term, “thrifting” is what people call shopping at thrift stores such as Goodwill or Waterfront Mission. Here in Pensacola, we have a couple of both of those thrift stores and I love them! Yesterday I went out with my mom to look around and all the neat stuff we found amazed us. The first item is a pink and black Juicy Couture backpack. Juicy has been one of my favorite brands ever since I fell in love with their Juicy Couture Couture perfume.

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But of course, we all know that Juicy Couture is a well-established name brand. Which is why finding one of their brand new (tags still on it) bags surprised me.

Then I found a pair of leopard print heels that I adored, but I didn’t buy. The reason is that I’d been to a consignment shop and bought a pair that looked exactly like them. But I did get black heels with pink platforms on the bottom. Very stylish. These are my leopard print ones.

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I was very excited to see a classy picnic basket there. I’ve always wanted one and now I have one so my boyfriend and I can go on the picnic day I’ve always dreamed of. I’ve never gone because I’ve saved it for someone special (And I’ve been looking for the perfect basket).

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I was very excited to find out that the brown leather jacket I’d been gawking over last time I was there was still there. I bought it this time!

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One of the coolest treasures, though, was this. It was something random that happened to catch my eye, but was so cool I had to get it. It’s perfect to hold the jewelry I usually wear so I don’t have to go searching for them every day.

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While we were at the second Goodwill, I bought a black jacket to go with my current Mary Kay status outfit as part of the black and white club. We also found red dress jackets and tried them on. We saw the future: red jacket Mary Kay consultants. It was very fun and super inspirational.

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Speaking of Mary Kay, we also found a classic black travel roll up bag and a handbag. Go figure!

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I had a lot of fun and I know my mom did, too. It was definitely a day that we needed. Every so often you just need to get away from the stress of school, work, home, and everyday life. But I admit that I can’t wait to go again. I had found some other things that were really fun and made me smile.

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Marked by P.C. Cast and Kristin Cast

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Taken from Goodreads.com

The first time I read this book (in high school) there were a lot of things that I’d missed because it was exciting to read. It brought a whole new kind of vampyre that I found incredible and I just wanted to read more and more. From mystical tattoos to special affinities, it was incredible and have me falling in and out of love with characters in every book.

Zoey Montgomery, a sixteen year old girl who lives in Tulsa, has hated her life ever since her mom married the “Step-loser.” She’s forced to live in a house where she is the “Bad kid” just because she doesn’t bow down to him and his God complex. He completely changed her mom into something she totally isn’t and expects Zoey to comply with everything he says, too. Then if that wasn’t bad enough, her boyfriend (heath) that she’s known her whole life is a football star that thinks drinking until the sun comes up and being dumb is cool and her best friend (Kayla) is a rude and sassy girl who secretly wants Heath but can’t make that obvious to her best friend. Then Zoey’s life completely changes when the mysterious hooded figure shows up and marks her.

Suddenly, she is now a vampyre fledgling expected to leave everything she knows behind and live in a vampyre school and create a new life for herself. No longer is she Zoey Montgomery, she’s Zoey Redbird. And as Zoey Redbird, she is to deal with boyfriend drama, make new friends, do homework, take town the most poplar and selfish girl in school all while trying to figure out why the vampyre goddess has marked her with full vampyre tattoos and pray that her body doesn’t reject the change. Not to mention learn who she can trust and who she can’t and find out why she is seeing the “Spirits” of the supposedly dead fledglings that rejected the change. Woe is Zoey!

Neferet’s Curse

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House of Night Wiki (Found on Google.com).

When Neferet had told Zoey a bit about her past human life I had wanted to know more. How did Neferet become the Vampyre woman she was in the series? I have to say that this novella was the best one out of the four. It’s only about a hundred pages but it had me hooked the entire time. I laughed, I got mad (mostly at her father), and I was super surprised. It’s definitely one of those situations where you know what’s going to happen but you don’t know when. It was fun to watch her go from a little girl to a survivor. She was willing to do anything to survive her situation, even if that meant manipulating her loved ones. It’s crazy what changes take place in people based off of our own life experiences.

[SPOILER ALERT]

The ending was the best for me. When Neferet’s father becomes jealous of her new boyfriend and assaults her, he acts as if she feels the same way for him! I can understand Neferet’s newfound anger and insanity that she gets. She comes to her boyfriend and his family for help and then gets marked right in front of him. He abandons Neferet, claiming that it is just too much for him to deal with. We can all relate in a human way to what she had felt at that time. Then, when power and strength presents itself to her, she goes after her father to kill him. What made my anger boil is that he looked at her like she was still his little girl and spoke to her like he worried about her. “I knew you’d come back to me.”

Neferet had two choices. She could, have left it all behind and continued her new life as all the other vampyres had done, or she could have taken another road and took her revenge. She chose her revenge and I think that is where her curse comes in. She became something truly unique and special, but she couldn’t let what happened go (not that any of us blame her). So when she killed her father, the darkness in the world attached to her and made a home with her; just like they had done to Kalona through his anger and jealousy. Hence, Neferet would be cursed with the darkness as long as she held onto what had happened.

It was truly an amazing book and just like Kalona’s Fall, it ended too soon.

Kalona’s Fall

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I remember feeling many things for Kalona during my obsession with the House of Night series, and those “things” were always half and half. Some of the time I loved him and other times I loathed. It’s always very difficult to hate a villain when they are like Kalona; when you know that they have bad intentions but it’s only because of the betrayal they have felt by someone they once loved. During the entire time that he was in the series I only wanted someone to come along and show him what being good is like, but the answer always came back as, “If even Nyx wasn’t enough how could anyone else be enough?” And with that, my next question always followed.

What happened to Kalona? Because I haven’t read them in forever, what I remember reading might be wrong. We know Nyx casted him from the Otherworld, but I’m pretty sure that he said it was because he got too close to her and loved her too much. The problem with a character like Kalona is that questions of who he is and where he came from always crossed my mind.

With this novella, Kalona’s Fall answers all the questions that we H.O.N. lover’s craved the answers to. Who is Kalona? Where did he come from? How did Nyx really feel about him? What did he do to her? The only problem I have with it is that it ended too soon. I wanted to read about how the human villagers cursed him to spend eternity trapped in a cave with a woman he thought was real, but was only a trick to lure him away.

Other than my personal issues with it ending so soon, I absolutely loved it and would love for P.C. Cast and Kristin Cast to continue his story.

Picture taken from House of Night wiki (Found on Google.com).

Runescape Memes Part VI

So it’s been a long while since I have posted anything, and it’s really surprising how much time went by. The last month and a half have been really hectic in my professional and personal life to the point to where I forgot I had a blog for a while. From dealing with the legal system to losing a best friend, and going from feeling like my life was falling apart to be being okay again, it’s ben rough. That’s why I’m happy to do another Runescape Memes post. These always make everything a little brighter (even if they aren’t that funny!) because they are so true.

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These people always annoyed me back when I began playing. Especially now that I know how easy it is to make money in the game. I feel like this is their exact expression when they decide they’re going to do it too. “Oh, I have forty-five million in the bank but I’m still going to beg for money.” Or, “I don’t feel like doing anything on here. I’m going to beg for money.”

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I laughed when I saw this one because of how right it is. Whoever made it, I give you kudos. Last year was a tough year for everyone with the election and other political debates. I hope this year is better.

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This quest has always made me mad. Both Romeo and Juliet were written to be so stupid, especially Romeo.

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I have always loved these memes, and when I saw this I almost died laughing. This is my second favorite to the “I asked if he wanted shrimp for dinner, he called me a noob,” one.

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When construction first came out I was so excited. It’s funny because ever since I was younger I would always picture this when I thought about decorating my living space (whether it was a house, bedroom, etc).

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I chose this one solely for the fact that it involves Harry Potter. If I looked into that mirror, that is exactly what I’d see.

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This is when anyone won’t leave you alone. In real life, I’ll tell people to stop ice barraging me, or say, “Begone, Tele block!”

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I had many of these moments while getting my quest cape. Especially when I went to go buy it and the Wise Old Man told me that I didn’t have all the requirements. I still have to do the wish list from Rag and Bone Man. Oh, I was so mad!

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